Sunday, July 21, 2013

Your 1 year anniversary


Your anniversary has come and went... it was tough leading up to it... I wasn't sure how to handle it, what to do and I wondered if I was doing it right...but you know what...your MY baby, MY child, and like I do with Emilie...I went with what felt right...it took awhile to figure that out...but with the help of some people I found it :) 

So I made this candle holder for you..


I didn't burn the green one though, I remembered buying a baby powder scented votive and used that :)


I lit not only that candle but also let the LED one I had made in your name run along with a larger candle in the owl candle holder :) I put lots of your trinkets out on a shelf... and let be all about you :)



Then we decorated balloons. I bought 4 figuring Emilie would like one and so if one popped we were covered..but your big sister decided we should decorate and release them all for you... we sent up some purple ones too for your sister to help her celebrate your special day with you. 


Bye Bye Balloons :)




Thursday, July 18, 2013

A Year Ago...



A year ago today I knew I would someday soon loose you. When I woke I didn't know it would be the day. You had already gone but it was time for your birth which would be the last day you would be with us.

The journey of this year has had many ups and downs. The drama the took over my life soon after your passing took my time to grieve, along with life in general...and I think now I'm realizing it. The days coming to today have been a struggle to face and deal. I'm there yet...but I'm better than I was a week ago.

As I face today I'm feeling different. I'm feeling much like I have with your sisters anniversaries. I can look back on things and realize that you've never truly left me. You've made your mark on my heart and soul and forever you will be carried by me. Your precious little life no matter how short will always be something I cherish. You have taught me things that only YOU could have, things that I didn't learn with your other siblings, things that are special for you my little Sage. Sage to me is wisdom...and i've become wiser with your appearance. Forever nestled in my hear you will stay.